Whatโs one of the big things that has preoccupied you since you were a child and throughout all of the years that have followed? Isnโt it fear of rejection? Recall your early days as a child. Even as a tiny baby you screamed, shrieked, and cried if you were not held, cuddled, and loved by your mother and your father. As a child you craved to play with playmates and you were miserable if they didnโt want to play with you. And when you were a teenager? Well, words canโt begin to describe the pain and fear teenager experiences when faced with rejection.
When parents divorce isnโt a childโs primal fear and first thought that one or the other parent is rejecting him, particularly the parent who because of the divorce is forced to leave the childโs home? In divorce kids imagine theyโre being rejected even though that isnโt the case.
Sometimes weโre so obsessed with the fear of rejection that we treat others badly. We treat them as if we were already rejected. Then, because weโre so sulky and isolating, they quite naturally donโt want to be around us.
And then thereโs that horrible experience of rejection when a parent is confronted by a son or daughter who is on dope or alcohol, a child who is running around, whoโs hardly ever at home except to eat, get cleaned up, and then leave again.
With all of the rejection we give each other, and in the midst of all of the rejection we ourselves experience, do we ever stop and consider how God has been hurt by our rejection of His love for us?
Jesus presented us with this parable (Mt 21:33-43) just before He entered Jerusalem for the last time. The crowds were about to spread palms in front of Him. Shortly thereafter He would go up on the Mount of Olives, there to weep and cry out in pain when He looked out over Jerusalem and cried: โJerusalem, Jerusalem, you that kill the prophets and stone those who are sent to you! How often have I longed to gather your children, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, and you refused!โ Then they crucified him.
We donโt like to admit it, but many times we reject God. Oh, we deny thatโฆ but in fact we do. How many times has there been when we just couldnโt be bothered by God. How many people act as if God simply doesnโt matter? How many times does His still, inner voice call us to do something and we refuse to listen to His whispering voice within us?
Then thereโs the matter of rejecting Godโs forgiveness. We are simply ignorant of the horrific sin that it is, slapping God in the face, declaring that God, Godโs love, Godโs forgiveness, simply doesnโt matter; that we canโt be bothered with it.
How many people do we know who should be here with us at Mass but are not because they canโt be bothered, have more important things to do that to receive Godโs love?ย The sin against the Holy Spirit is unforgivable because that sin consists in telling God that He is unimportant, that He makes no difference to us, is only a marginal part of our lives if, indeed, He has any part at all in our lives. How can God forgive us if we think it doesnโt matter?
The pain of rejection is horrible. That pain is made crystal clear and perfectly evident when we take a good look at the crucifix and understand its profound message, namely our rejection of Godโs love for us. Thatโs why thereโs a human body hanging on it. Itโs not an empty cross, itโs a cross loaded to the full with rejection, the worst kind of pain that any of us can ever experience. The crucifix presents us with God nailed and immobilized because we wonโt listen to him!
Thereโs no defense against rejection. No words can deal with rejection. Thereโs nothing we can do against it — which is perhaps why Jesus stood before Pontius Pilate, the personification of human judgment and rejection, and stood there in utter silence. Words simply cannot deal with the reality of rejection. Nothing can.
The parable we just heard in the Gospel is more than just a parable about us. It is, rather, a glimpse into Godโs heart. It tells us about how He feels, about the hurt and pain He experiences at our hands.
During Good Friday services it was once common to hear the Reproaches. They were words placed in the mouth of God and directed at us. Perhaps some of you may remember them:
My people, what have I done to you? How have I offended you? Answer me!ย I led you out of Egypt; but you led your Savior to the Cross.ย For forty years I led you safely through the desert, I fed you with manna from heaven, and brought you to the land of plenty; But you led your Savior to the Cross.ย O, My people! What have I done to you that you should testify against me? Answer me!
One may wonder whether or not God can suffer hurt. In Christ Jesus, God the Son made human for us, He certainly did. And nothing caused Him more pain than our rejection of him.
So when you are experiencing rejection, and when the fear of rejection is overpowering within you, give some time to being alone with Christ. Heโs here for you all of the time, twenty-four hours a day. Heโs here in the Mass. Heโs here in the Blessed Sacrament. Heโs here in His house waiting for you to come and visit Him. Why not pay Him a visit from time to time? Why not come here and spend some time with Him? Heโd love that, you know. Heโd love to have someone come and give Him some time alone with Him, along with some words of love for Him. He knows rejection, and in His infinite love and caring for us, He gives us His power to overcome rejection and know what it is to love and be loved in return.